Dear father
what was in your mind
when you sent me text like this
3:28 am in the morning
Dear father
did you know that
I happened to be awake
and it hurts me real bad like
seriously real bad that
I spent the next two hours
feeling really really lost
Dear father
what have I done that
I deserved to be treated this way
I didn’t reply text the whole day
because I was really busy
on top of the pressure
Dear father
what makes you think that
I looked down on your wife
what have she told you about me
now I look down on both of you
absolutely
Dear father
I don’t mind if the whole world
do not understand me but
Dear father
you,
as the one I am so close with
even you can’t understand me
Dear father
I really feel it’s failure on my part
I have been going home so often
boasting to friends how cool my dad is
how close am I to my family
and this is what I got in return
Dear father
it’s a real failure on my part
please accept my sincere resignation
to be part of the close circle
Dear father
I am out for real
I don’t care if
I am all alone in this world
Dear father
and did you actually know that
these days that I didn’t go back
I survive really well outside and
I started to regret
hiding myself too much at home
Dear father
under the pretext of going home
I have lost so much time which
I could have better spent
with my friends and
build my own social circle
Dear father
it’s time for me to grow
and I am done with this
homegoing shit which
was sort of a form of escapism
Dear father
I have told the other
daughter of yours that
you have to pay for
what you have done to me
but retaliation is not
what I am seeking for
Dear father
all I want is to
let you feel sorry for
what you have done to me
perhaps for the rest of your life
Dear father
I have seen too much
dramas and politics
and that’s not
what I am seeking
so the only solution is
to walk away in silence
Dear father
thank you for all those you have done
for me in the past
including these really cruel texts
which make me stronger
Dear father
thank you for all the wonderful memories
which I really treasure and
now I am finally prepared to
move on as a solo traveller
yes, now that I have to
Dear father
nice to hear from you
and I do not look forward to
any further correspondence
in the near future
have a good day