It's 22nd today
the procrastination gap is
getting bigger and bigger
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On my way to the airport now
for a short family retreat
in Penang
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November started slow
but I was super lazy from the
hectic workload during end of October
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Followed by an one week retreat in Fujian
super chill super slow
zero itinerary
i spent two mornings
working all the way
before we headed out at noon
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Something frustrating happened
before the trip
which I realized much later
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I spent the night doing a task
until 1 something AM
and then continued on to finalize it
at the airport
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Weeks later
when i asked about the pending PO
I had somehow missed that damn email
which informed about task cancellation
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somehow dumbfounded
when 100+ just disappeared
anyway i labelled that task
under jinxed category
because it came back and forth
for more than a month
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Serious work kicked in
after the recharge trip
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Juggling between two huge projects
and some other smaller tasks in between
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It was 5am on a Sunday morning
at an Airbnb
after attending a wedding dinner
that my friend sleeping next to me
said she heard someone typing
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But when she woke up
finding i was asleep
she thought it was a dream
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In fact it wasn't
during those wee hours that
i really need to work and rest
at the same time
i can actually work for 1 hour
then head back to a quick nap
alternatively
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until the sunlight hits the window
then i will be in full swing
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that's how i survive
many damn cold nights
settling deadlines which
seem impossible to
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Other than that
the month ended pretty fast
as one of the big project s
went on all the way until
mid of December
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it was one of the most
challenging of them all
audio transcription for long interviews
with live interpretation
in the background
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but I think I kinda
achieved a new milestone
9pm to 5am,
all the way to finish off one file
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then continue working
after a 2 hour nap
working from
9pm to 5am
and then 7am to 5pm
you can’t imagine
how productive I felt
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anway
i will write the December post along
as I somehow feel there will be
more procrastination and hibernation
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plus I do need to write a summary post
to wrap the year
i mean this is all I am left with
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i no longer blog about
shopping, travel, music or
anything under the sun
as I used to do
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the momentum in November
continued until something
even more painful happened
earlier this week
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Having spent almost 4 years
as a full time freelancer
i got fee deduction for the very first time
for error which was partially my fault
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it feels more like a humiliation
rather than the amount deducted
i wish i would have argued
after discussing the situation with
an experienced "mentor"
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but if the person was firm enough to do this
i doubt it will change anything
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but it somehow makes me
realize something serious
the "no safety net" concern is real
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next day if your client decides
to give up on you
for whatsoever reason
that’s it
end of story
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anyway I try not to take it personal
thank goodness
ino longer have to deal with
people in person
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i am that kind who show
whatever emotion i have
right on the face
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Anyway
when you shop hard
during 11.11, BFCM,
as well as 12.12 & Christmas
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You have to work equally hard to
generate enough to
fund your shopping
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and I managed to
make another record
something good this time round
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attended wedding dinner and
registration of wedding ceremony
for the very first time in
a decade or maybe much longer
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who knows
I may change my mind
about getting married
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