Wednesday, February 24, 2010

又見一簾噩夢

可能是近日遇見這些人多了

就是那天在巴士上看見一個外勞

和我們在同一站上車

他上車后自言自語

然后一直騷擾另外一個移工乘客

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雖然啊聽不明白他們在講什么

但是很明顯另外一個乘客

真的很不舒服 一直拒絕他

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過后我竟然在學校遇見了這個人

原來他是宿舍的打掃工人

他不知道跟我講了什么

我就快點跑掉了

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有時在公共交通

也看見那些特殊兒童

有些會鬧情緒

再加上

在課堂上

遇見變態佬的事

我時時出門

都有點心驚膽戰

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來這里的原因之一

是這里的治安比較好

但是誰知道…

都怪我自己時運低吧

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所以最近也是常常有那種精神失常的人

出現在我夢里

前天也是

昨天也是 我們家那邊出現了一個這樣的人

天天大吵大鬧

我們心驚膽戰

出去要偷偷摸摸

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還有一幕 在高山 山林著火 很多人

很像旅游勝地

我媽媽在山上

我爸爸和我 就打電話跟我媽媽講

我們先走了 在平安的地方見

叫她帶小比

過后又打給她 我們帶到小比了

過后我們在家團聚了

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還有一幕 我回到家 就有某聞人的葬禮

有藍色很大的挽聯

我有點擔心

最后幸運的是

我公公還有在

我抱著我公公哭

他跟我講辛苦就回來吧

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醒來后 我超想回家的

因為看到葬禮和我公公的那一幕令我很害怕

天啊 保佑我

保佑我的家人

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Sunday, February 21, 2010

About Myself

my 5 marks assignment about myself

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Hi Prof,

my name is HT,

more commonly known as Stephy among my friends.

I am currently in Year 2.

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Whenever people ask me whether I enjoy what am I studying now,

I will answer, I am enjoying half of it.

I enjoy the part where Economics are studied with

analytical and argumentative approaches.

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However I dislike Mathematics.

Therefore I enjoy this module more than

any other Economics module that I am taking now.

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Since I am a Malaysian,

this module is relatively significant to me.

This is the first time I get to study about

my own country in NUS.

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Like any other girls at my age, I enjoy shopping.

Since I learn Economics,

the most significant change is that

I try to differentiate between

demands and want to refrain from excessive shopping.

But sometimes consumer theories are

not applicable at all and

I end up with too many new goods in my wardrobe.

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Besides I enjoy baking and cooking.

The joy of transforming a few types of ingredients into

lovely cookies or dishes is indescribable.

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The time spent in kitchen is always memorable.

During baking and cooking processes,

I like to take photographs as well.

The previous round of massive baking was during Chinese New Year.

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All those happy moments during the last 7 days,

it’s time to get back into reality.

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Regarding my future plans,

I just hope that I can find a decent job in

Singapore after graduation.

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However I don’t plan to settle permanently here.

Despite all the discussion during tutorial about

corruption and inequalities that are happening in Malaysia,

I still like it the best.

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Quoted what Prof has said,

Singapore is a too sanitized city.

I prefer life a little rougher back home.

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But why am I still studying here now,

a little contradicting, isn’t it? Well.

*

.Ask thousands of Malaysian working here,

the reality is that the wages offered here is just irresistible,

although our hearts are much attached to home.

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In short, we are getting the best of both worlds.

If you would like to find out more about me,

feel free to browse my blog

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Thank you and see you in lecture.

Hope you can recognize this long hair, tanned girl.

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Saturday, February 20, 2010

Mum’s Kitchen: Soy Bean 豆漿

其實初一就浸了豆

但是沒有時間做

而且冰箱一直滿滿

做了沒有地方放

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我一直都在夢想有一架豆漿機

而且豆漿一直是我爸爸的最愛

又很健康 何樂而不為呢

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以前我們做豆漿

都要用布袋拼命擠

好不容易才有豆漿

我們有一次還試過用石磨

磨了大半個小時

才有一杯

不夠我們喝

真的很累

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很幸運的是

我姐姐在她家找到了這架豆漿機

是牛牛牌的哦

還可以做年糕之類的

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而且她還意外找*到了

那個 waffle 機

兩個都是沒有用過的

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我爸爸每次講要把家里的石磨

裝上馬達

要有傳統的味道

做豆漿 年糕

哈哈 這就叫挑剔

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我常常記得舒淇在“玻璃樽”講的一句話

幸福就是早上起來有一杯熱騰騰的豆漿

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erm…

班蘭葉的香味

嘴上滿滿的白色泡沫

肚子溫熱的感覺

這就是自制豆漿的魅力

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期待我們的豆腐花…

健康之泉    好濃哦       過濾

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Mum’s Kitchen: Homemade Waffles

大年初二

大清早特地去7-11 買了牛奶

做 waffle

食譜來至 活在當下

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當我在做的時候

媽媽說

過程有點怪

跟她平時做蛋糕其他的東西不一樣

盡管試試咯

waffle 機 面粉加自來水的開機儀式快出爐了 有點焦

上碟了

*

幸好最后出來的成品

是放得下口的

而且還做來招待親友

*

我們做的沒有像外面賣的

香味四溢

可能少了我爸爸所謂的仙丹水,椰漿

哈哈他的比喻真好

所有的東西有了椰漿都好吃

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而且椰漿能“治百病”

很多長輩口中都說

不能夠吃椰漿

但是還是偷偷地吃

吃一點點沒關系

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還有我們的顏色沒有這樣均勻

可能是油的分量沒有這么多

外面賣的

冷卻了就都是油

吃不下去了

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自己做的則不會

就像麥叔叔的薯條

冷卻了后就像枯萎掉

所以還是少吃為妙啦

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Post CNY Shopping

仙女下凡來拜年咯

祝大家萬事如意      身體健康

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i never plan to buy anything actually

just to accompany Sue-yin

finally found her Roxy Purse

*

but saw this super cool shirt at Padini

something very embarrassing happened

when i was about to pay

i forgot that i didn’t have my ‘Malaysian pouch’ with me

*

kept digging my purse

and can’t even get Rm 24.5

remembered that i have a Rm 100 ang pau

but damn.. i can’t find it

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finally borrowed Rm 5 from Sue-yin

and paid back with some other ang pau

there were a lot of rm 5 one

just that i didn’t have the courage

to open up ang pau money

and pay right in front of the counter

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but ultimately there’s another problem

with this T

i went back and put it on

it’s tight

to avoid more nagging

and just in case i grow fat and

it is no longer wearable

decided to ask mom to go exchange it

*

why am i so dump

actually i took out S and XL

trying to figure out

whether i want this to be

a baby T fitting one

or a loose casual one

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then i discovered

actually it’s wiser to take M instead

just a normal everyday T

Love!    baby-T S zize

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as usual our stop at Dee’s

browsing through some non flora tops

to balance my wardrobe

then attention was directed by Sue-yin

to this flora smart casual halter neck

*

oh man

i wan a non flora top

but this looks cool

ended up with a perfect solution

of not buying anything

needs vs wants

i always want everything

but i don’t need anything now

photo for reference

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went to see this long top again

it’s so sleek

but now longer 50% off

it’s rm250 i think

aw.. forget bout it

G2 Pink Label     

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Sue-yin bought Roxy

now i m no longer the only

Roxy addict

spreading the influence

        

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i was wearing this pair of flat

just got it few days before CNY

mom insisted that i buy this

because i got very serious cracked heel

so she thinks that it is because

i been wearing too much flip flop

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but the problem is

i always kena blisters at the back of my ankle

so painful…

dirty blue...

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i think when it comes to the time that

i have to wear cover shoes everyday

i have to invest in a pair of expensive one

to avoid blisters

is it gonna be Clark? HP?

well well…

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Sunday, February 14, 2010

CNY Greeting: 年餅禮籃

哈哈 恭喜恭喜

你的舞獅怎樣了

為你帶來了一個虛擬的賀禮

不好意思

讓你望梅止渴了

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全部都是home-made

雖然不是100% 出自我家啦

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祝大家

萬事如意

大吉大利

待續……

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年菜最後我沒有做 因為我姐姐買了 雷聲大雨點小 我姐姐的杏仁酥 我媽媽的牛油餅 出自正宗娘惹bibk的手 .... 何謂正宗?  就是天天都穿kebaya的老太太 milky milky 的不知名餅乾我大姑的年糕 不過聽講很像發霉了 哈哈 客家美食 不必介紹 另外一面 慢慢的花生 Satu Malaysia Murukku馬來auntie給的 因為Hari Raya我都講她的這個好吃 從此新年年餅她都會做這個送給我們  但是很像沒有什麼人會欣賞 硬砰砰的 就叫 石頭餅吧 香脆的kuih lidah 我媽媽很就以前特地去親戚家學的 就只是層層的麵粉 撒些糖份 但是口感很好 怎麼少了我的花生酥 有點歷經風霜的滄桑感 甜品: 剛出爐的果凍 忘了買nata coco 只有龍眼肉罷了 每年都是top fav 大人小孩都喜歡

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Friday, February 12, 2010

Rawr….. New Year Resolution

Hapi CNY, all

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my new year resolutions:

- be strong, face it, breathe easy

- shed more weight around the waist and thighs

- remember to apply sun block, lotion and whatever

- skip work,class less

- get rid of my cracked heels

- bake more stuffs yet eat less

- appreciate all the good things i have

- minimize my shopping budget

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Thursday, February 11, 2010

Getting Ready to Go Home

I am physically and mentally ready for CNY

physically in the sense that

wee, i have shed some weight

just for CNY

and of course this is a long term mission

so i will try to keep it under control

till the end of CNY

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mentally in the sense that

i am almost done

with this stressful week

test, assignments, presentation

another 5 hours tomorrow

last assignment to hand in

and i am done

8am to 1pm back-to-back

then i will head down to Larkin

*

just now before attending 2 tutorials

i packed up my stuffs

almost on the verge of leaving

since there’s a car for hitching

during 5pm

but that means i have to miss 5 hours of lesson

which i already did last week

cooled down

finally i did go for lessons

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blasting the CNY songs

everything will be fine

just strive on….

next target.. the thighs looked fair, but the reality is...OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERA         brand new Roxy, never been worn... [no comment]no longer in emo mood

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Wednesday, February 10, 2010

In-Fusion Night

joined this dance

an international students performance

i was in the Malaysia-Malay dance group

been practising the dance since last Oct

(wei, i sacrificed a few going-home weekends)

*

yet we changed 90% of the dance

two weeks ago

but it really improved

and surprisingly we picked up the new moves fast

*

i had fun

not during the practices of course

but when the performing day got closer

there is closer bond among the girls as well

*

i m that kind of person

who can ‘shine’ in small group of friends

but when there are a big crowd

i tend to be the anti-social emo one

*

before that there were 10 girls

but due to the space constraint

they asked us to cut down on the people

gosh…

i was telling the girls

“oh no, the Malays will have to return to Malaysia”

we didn’t know how to solve this

since everyone had put in effort

so 4 of them quitted on their own wills

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actually i think our group

especially this Malay dance

was a bit weak and boring

compared to the Indian (of course), the Filipinos etc

*

but the most important thing is

this is the experience

and all of us had put in effort

during one of the official rehearsal

*

one of the guys fell

while lifting another guy

who was performing the

legendary kung-fu kick

but luckily he wasn’t injured

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and ssshh…

of course i need the CCA point as well

(blushing…)

rehearsal day costume fitting Ah moi cantik  the swt-ing pose i was too fast... the whole Malaysian group

now i have a MAS mini dress the malay girl make-up

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華納群星: 有隻老虎

这个卡司也太强大了吧

方大同唱新年歌

還有兩天 

還有兩天

我就可以回家咯

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Monday, February 8, 2010

我該不該退學?

我該不該退學?

——對一個退學大學生的回信

日前,一個已經上到大學三年級的同學給“教育熱線”來信,

表示想退學,據說其實不止這一封,

而是還有很多人想退學。

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表面上,大家困惑的是要不要退學,

但實際上,我們要回答另外一個問題:

爲什麽要退學?退學的目的是什麽?

如果這個問題不解決,我們可能還會退學,還會困惑。

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我簡單看了看來信,理由無非如下:

專業與學校不是我想學的,于是放棄,

無所事事,于是想重新來過。

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我覺得最根子的原因,

實際是我們很多人長期以來都是在被動地生活,

所有的事情都被父母定位,一旦沒有人替你安排,

沒有了目標,就會茫然,不知所措,

繼而想退學,重新來過。

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小時候,父母要讓你上好的小學,

在好的小學裡要你努力學習,

目的是上好的中學,

到了中學,要求你繼續努力學習,

目的是上好的大學。

在考大學的時候,

無論學校、專業也多是由父母來替你選擇、安排。

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以前的日子,無趣,

但在父母的安排下,你還有目標,

一旦進入大學,你獨立了,但同時,

你的生活也失去了目標,

你不知道下一個目標與目的是什麽。

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或者出現一種因爲期望過于理想,

當面對現實的時候,覺得差距太大,

導致失去興趣,想重新來過。

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尤其是在進入大學時,因爲客觀條件的限制,

比如你的能力、分數等等,

導致你只能在有限的條件下選擇,

而無法達到理想目的與狀態。

這時候往往會成爲你茫然或者失望的借口,

從而想重新來過,退學就成爲一種很正常的想法了。

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因此,從我的角度來看,是否退學,

首先要搞清楚自己到底爲什麽退學?目的是什麽?

退學了是否就可以達到?這一點非常重要,

你一定要清楚自己想要什麽,

給自己做主,做真正的主。

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因爲以前的一切你都是被動的,

一切都不是你選擇的,

因此你就很難有堅持的理由與心理支撐,

往往會成爲你逃避的借口。

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但很重要的是,在清楚明白自己想要什麽的前提,

是要明白幾個道理:

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第一、不能理想化。

在人的一生中,其實很難有自由選擇的機會,

往往是在有限的條件下,做有限的選擇,

絕大多數是難以達到理想目標的,

你不得不去做很多不想做的事情,

與很多不喜歡的人打交道;

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這時候,優秀的人是選擇面對,

事實上,多數人也只能面對,沒有更多選擇。

優劣之分,就在于你是積極面對,

咬牙堅持、克服了,適應了,

還是被動應對,最後放棄、回避?

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比如說,

我們有多少人能有條件自由選擇所上的學校與專業。

全中國有這樣的條件的,可能沒有幾個人。

表面上省級的狀元才有這樣的資格,

但在高考分數公布前,

是沒有幾個人能知道自己會成爲狀元的,

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也就是所,在報考志願的時候,

很多最後成爲狀元的人往往也

只能在有限的條件下選擇。

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從這個角度講,理想是有限的,不是絕對的,

我們的選擇 99% 的時候都是有限的,

而且選擇的機會的大小,也都來自自己的努力,

而不僅僅是選擇。

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第二、做比選擇更重要,只要你努力,

在哪裡都可以作出成就。

過去爲了讓年輕人從事一些基層的工作,往往說,

只要是金子在哪裡都會發光。

但這個道理是永恒的:

只要你努力,你總會成功,就可以做到自己的最好。

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環境及其他條件固然能給你成功提供很大幫助,

但最重要的,還是自己的努力。

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我舉個例子。

現任中國農業大學校長陳章良教授。

他的大學是在海南島上的一個小縣城上的

海南熱帶作物學院。

就是這麽一個小縣城,並沒有影響他最後的作爲與成長,

並沒有影響他最後留學美國,並獲得突出成績,

繼而走進北大,成爲北京大學最年輕的副校長。

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這種例子不勝枚舉。 其實我們也可以反證。

並不是北大、清華的人,

最好的專業的人最後都有成就,都有出息。

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第三、學校的優劣都是相對的,不是絕對的,

多數差距實際不大。

先說學校之間的區別。

我對全國高校應該有比較深的了解,

就全世界角度來看,

我國的高等教育質量應該說是很差的,

清華、北大與世界先進水平相比,還差得很遠。

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就國內這些高校比較,多數差距並不大。

我把國內高校大概分成四個層次,

第一層次的只有 15-20 所左右,

這其中以清華、南京大學爲代表。

第二個層次就是所謂的幾十個部屬

211 學校及個別地方學校,總數應該不超過40個。

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第三層次的就很多了,不好說範圍,我用剔除法。

新興的高職、專科院校如果說是第四層次的話,

那麽剩下的學校都可以歸到這個範疇,至少有800所。

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也就是說,多數學校本質沒有太大差距。

我們大多數人其實能選擇的,也基本上就在第三個層次。

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從我這個分類法來說,絕大多數學校並沒有本質的差異,

甚至是很大的差異。

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因爲我們的知識經驗有限,容易被一些學校宣傳所誤導,

尤其所謂錄取時的所謂重點本科,

其實這其中很多學校與所謂“二本”沒有任何區別。

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第四、不要對專業理性化,

專業不能決定你的未來與發展方向。

其實,專業並不能決定一個人的發展未來,方向。

比如現任哪個國家領導人是學政治或者管理出身的?

沒有,不僅中國沒有,全世界都沒有。

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再比如看看你父母,他(她)難道就是因爲學什麽

就必然做什麽了嗎?

過去的中國,計劃經濟強調專業對口,

強調根據所學專業來進行分配,

即便如此,多數人後來的發展也都偏離了所學專業。

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現在更是如此,多數人所學往往非所用。

因此千萬不要過分以此爲借口來給自己退學的理由。

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另外,很多專業並不是像大家所想象的那樣,

或者像他的名字那樣吸引人。這其中有文字誤解,

更有我國高等教育質量的根本問題,

往往是徒有虛名,尤其是很多時髦專業。

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越是時髦,反倒是師資力量越差,

很多老師都是濫萸充數。

經管等應用專業尤其突出,

大量的老師其實並沒有實踐經驗,只能是照本宣科而已。

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當我們能清楚地認識到學校、專業

這些實際的情況與人的成功的基本道理,

我們就更能理性地選擇自己是否需要退學。

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最後明白地說我的建議:

雖然很多學校很糟糕,很多專業很糟糕,

但實際上多數學校與專業都一樣,並沒有本質差異。

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我原則上並不建議大家退學,

在開始的時候你可以不上,

但上了,不應該以各種不理想爲理由退學,

在我看來,這更多是一種回避與退縮。

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即便將來重新來過,你會發現,

其實並沒有你想象的那般好,

可是你一旦堅持下來了,努力了,

你就會發現,你成功了!

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Sunday, February 7, 2010

CNY Greeting: Margarine Cookies

we been baking this for ages

usually will be served as CNY breakfast

when i was about to suggest to her

that why don’t we bake some new cookies instead

since so many recipes are available online

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now that i am editing photos

of CNY cookies

i regret i never bring any here

all i have is wholemeal bread

arrgh..

Planta base        pre-baked      flower flower   they are so huge    slimmer version     yummy yummy

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