found a kitten downstairs
and decided to bring it home
this fellow was not as spoilt
as the previous Olaf
who gave me a good bite
and I ended up at clinic with
swollen finger
Naughty Cutie X Called Snowy: Can I be Your Baby?
Olaf! X Don’t Run!: High-Risk-Fun
he was pretty tame
like sitting around at corners
walking around my legs
once in awhile
while I was busy doing something else
I am not too sure those are
scars / wound / or just dirt
I bet he has been starving for
quite some times already
the more well-behaved he is
the bigger my dilemma is
I can’t keep a pet because:
- I would not be around from 7:30-7:30
- or sometimes even longer
- my housemates seem to be quite anti
- they were shouting and jumping
- the previous time Olaf was here
after the shower
it is quite a sad sight
he is almost bony
I think I failed the mission of
bathing a pet because
there was still mud all over the paws
I sent it outside
like making believe that
let’s say I keep it as a part-time pet
leave it outside when I am out
and pick it up when
I am back home after work
will it actually work?
I left it outside for five minutes
and went out
it was still at the same spot
I felt really bad
like playing with this small experiment
so I decided not to keep it
and sent it back to
the common area downstairs
hoping that someone who is
more suitable will pick it up soon
6:20 pm
I went down for a jog
walked around and didn’t find him
I seriously hope that
he has found a new home
or I would feel really bad
10:25 pm
while I am looking through
these photos of him
my eyes are actually teary
no kidding, man
I still remembered his look
sitting so still at where I left him
during the short experiment
and he was actually shivering
yet I was cruel enough to
send it away downstairs
right at the moment
the sense of guilt is overwhelming
the act of abandoning the little fellow
and by giving him false hope that
he has actually landed in safe hands
it is just like
someone who walked into
your life and promised to
take good care of you and
you actually choose to believe
yet to wake up soon to find that
the person has walked away
the feeling of falling back to hell
from a false heaven is
somehow worse than
being in hell all the while
did I say too much
sorry probably I am quite drunk
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