Monday, August 16, 2010

Limbo

In the theology of the Catholic Church,

Limbo (Latin limbus, edge or boundary,

referring to the "edge" of Hell)

is a speculative idea about the afterlife condition

of those who die in original sin

without being assigned to the Hell of the damned.

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got to learn Limbo

from the movie Inception

of course

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i think i am in one too

i withdrew

but it’s not complete

i still keep thinking of going back

i begged them

but they wouldn’t let me to

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and there is no path

for me to proceed

i am trapped

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it has been 4 months already

i have been job-hopping

4 in a row

and the list will grow

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my parents keep asking me

to start afresh

new course new place

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but to me

it won’t do

i will just enter a course

happily acting a zombie

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graduate with mediocre result

and that’s it

and i shall go back to square one

have to come out

and look for a job

i don’t like the job

and continue to hop

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so i won’t go back to school

because i don’t even know

what i want to do now

what am i best at, how?

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and most important of all

the mentality

i just couldn’t fit in

with the 1990’s kids

for another 3 or 4 years

looking at all the friends

happily graduating next sem

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so i would rather just hide myself

but this is not a permanent solution

i can continue to hop and fall

but 5 years down the road

i am no longer young

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friends would be embarking

on a stable career

speaking about buying cars, houses

a happy family in construction

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but what can i do

nothing

nothing

most probably

i will still struggle with

meagre incomes

with the support from parents

while others are doing the other way round

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welcome to my Limbo

the world of sheer emo

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