CKS asked me,
how come i know this girl, JW
yeah, i know her all my life
because she is my cousin
her mom and my mom are sisters
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you may start wondering
oh then you girls should be quite close
you know, same age,
both studied at Singapore
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no.. not at all
then you will be quite wrong
i don’t talk to her
all we say to each other
is “Happy New Year” annually
and that’s it
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i just added her on FB recently
because she needs a job
so i introduced her to the firm
i used to work with at Singapore
so adding her is out of necessity
not out of friendship
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she didn’t make it through the interview
she didn’t tell me what happened
she didn’t even once thank me
not that i want any form of appreciation
but it is just basic politeness, isn’t it
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it is not that something happened
between me and her
in the past
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just that i don’t talk to cousins
to be specific
all of my cousins
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why?
because to me
cousins are spies
what ever you tell them
they will tell their mummies
and before you know it
the whole family
including your own mummy
will know how you skipped class
and hanged out at the arcade last week
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it’s not that i really have skipped class
but i really have this bad experience
of being betrayed by cousins
when i was 6
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we were playing together
two cousins
a elder sister and a brother
same aged as me
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a “bad word” slipped out of my mouth
i couldn’t remember what was it
but at 6 years old
i don’t believe that i am that polluted
that i used the word FUCK
must be some harmless but crude words
i think
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then the boy threatened
to go tell my mom about it
so i begged him not to
and the girl, taller than me
was stopping me with both arms opened
while the boy ran with all his might
to go tell my mom
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great then i got penalized
onion peeling
just the outer skins
but i felt humiliated
because i was betrayed
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i guess in these cases
mum punish their kids
not because the kids really did something very wrong
just that the spies
they deserve to see a good show
for their hard work
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since then
i never befriend any cousins anymore
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the boy was in the same class
during primary school
for 3 years
but we never talk at all
because he was the pet’s gang
that always sat at the front of the class
while i belonged to the back lane gang
which always hang out and talk at the back
making lots noises
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and dont’ you realize
you will always have this cousin
who is in insurance or direct selling
and they are the only one
who will pay you a visit
during non Chinese New Year period
you know what they are up to
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by now
you may think that
i am a cold-bolded animal
yes i am
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but haven’t u heard of the Chinese proverb
“distant relatives is incomparable to
nearby neighbour”
so i rather befriend my neighbour kids
play badminton with them
visit them on CNY, willingly
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p.s.
i have loads cousins
i don’t even know how many
and i don’t even recognize their faces
eldest, with son only one year younger than me
youngest, i don’t know, kindergarten perhaps
i lost tracked and count of my lovely cousins
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