Not So Loud X Among The Crowd: Putting Back a Smile

everyday life

spiced up by happiness, anxiety, excitement

especially so when you are trapped in this little game

 

so yesterday

in the middle of texting

I asked you whether you wanna meet up

there I was waiting for like 30 minutes

that’s anxiety of waiting

 

so you never reply

so you never turn up

and 1 hour later

only you replied an apology

that you fell asleep

okay that’s frustration

 

today in class

suddenly got a text:

“Stop planting :-X”

 

“I like your baby blue shirt”

“Its for you”

 

it almost melted me

okay what ever you have done yesterday

you are forgiven

 

then for the next one hour

we were texting underneath our bags 

while of course

still concentrating in class

 

exchanging smiles

across tables

 

I feel like I am 9 years old again

passing written message with the lover boy

while the teacher is teaching in front

 

close friend which I hang out with

is saying

last time I was not even bothered to check phone

all the time kept in my bag

now…

all the time clutching to it

looking out for message

texting and smiling

 

maybe maybe…

*sly smile*