what am I doing here?
2 in the morning, it’s a Friday
normally I would be sound asleep at home right now
Friday
class ends at 12
happily, with my backpacks
and the more-reserved clothing as usual
off I go home
but not this week
at first..
a friend of mine said he is going Melaka
so can actually give me a ride
but on Saturday
but I turned down
it’s okay
I will still stick to the plan
of going home on Friday noon
then Friday noon was spent here
with the project group
acting as children of 6
and lesbians of 16
and loitered and stalked people
on an quite empty plaza
so switched back to Plan B
decided to follow him on Saturday
but then ..
finally he is not going after all
so I have to go back by bus
Saturday morning
different routes available
none are straight forward back home
I thought I can cover
large chunks of my project due next week tonight
but I didn’t
loitering around as usual
and damn.. Blogger is down
and damn.. it’s a Friday night
ok loads of excuses
basically I am not doing any work at all
so how am I gonna go back?
going back on 8am
going back on 12pm
then what I gonna do at Melaka?
going to work
going to shop
then somebody
who must have felt guilty
is suggesting me to stay back
then do assignments together
good idea
not too bad
I can finish my 35% marks websites
take my own sweet time
do it with all my might
and chill out
but this is a long weekend
all the way till Tuesday
since Monday is my free day
then Tuesday is a public holiday
and somemore this ain’t no ordinary holiday
it’s Wesak Day
I am a buddhist
I am a buddhist
you know… so called
okay forget it
so I will continue to decay
when the morning comes
just hope to finish the assignment on time
then I can hang around … in peace
anyway
this gonna be a good start
for me to be independent
stop running home
to take a few days off
the identity here
and become somebody else
it’s time to grow
but that means I have to
draw another seven watches
till next week
