good news
at some point of time last week
I doubt if my mind has stopped
functioning in English
and I can hardly spit out words in English
due to the overwhelming
overemo Cantopop and posts
yeah… finally
dreams..
when days are bad
I always have dreams
and the strange thing is
my dream is really like those in 《Inception》
it’s not exactly layers and layers of dream
but I always have complicated dreams
made up of different scenes, people, storyline
usually more than three
it’s really torturous
waking up out of breath,
on the verge of suffocation
and more tiring than ever
wishing I have never slept at all
but it can at least be
something comforting
if I found myself remembering
pieces of the dream
and I shall start picking them
and make them into a complete puzzle again
haha
(lyric from Teenage Dream)
so scene 1
I was walking in a mall
with both of my parents
somehow I was wearing something very horrible
and I knew that a girl gang
primary maties were having a meet up there
so I tried all my might, irrationally
to persuade my parents to go home
and in that dream
I even saw myself looking into a mirror
plain grey top and
a dark blue mickey mouse skirt
OMG
then my mom met Sharon
my first ever bestie during primary
she walked up and greeted her
but I was hiding away
so that they wouldn’t see me
looking so haggard
ok.. end of the story
analysis
#1 gurls outing
sorry I have to betray my friends again
saw this on FB a couple of times already
four of them belonged to my gang
during primary school
I was the only one who chose to
transferred to the chinese school
instead of staying at the Convent school
and I guess that changed a lot of things
we used to be the best friends on the earth
but different directions make loads differences
I guess I still quite miss them
but even if they have invited me
that would be awkward
cause most probably they will be talking about
their good old Convent times
which I didn’t have a share in
it is impossible that we can go back
to those times crazy times
going mad over Leehom Wang
I don’t even like Leehom now
these are the kind of friends
that shall be kept in memories
but in real life
it’s kinda tough
I met two girls once
while I was working at a mall
like after 4+ years
one of them I never met her
since I left primary school
my god it must be close to 10 years already
and the ironic part is
she stayed on the same stretch of road
“Jalan Laksamana Cheng Ho”
and just after so many years
I just found out
oh she has already moved out
and the other girl too
“Taman Laksamana Cheng Ho”
both within 1km
so close…
yet so far
so excited
we talked and laughed
to realize that my supervisor
was already staring impatiently
promised to arrange a meet up
but it will never work
trust me
one of these days,
we shall come together and catch up
but rare chances
that it would be realized
trust me
analysis #2
the horribly dressed up me in the dream
Carly told me an old high school mate
added her on FB
she used to be those tomboyish
the skirt always got torn
but now so shockingly HAWT…
that reflected back to my case
I hate when those old gangs
tagged me for high school photos
so horrible looking
I doubt if I have the courage to post it here
go dig from FB if you are dying to find out
don’t laugh, don’t ever…
but I was already that playful back then
and handwriting can’t deceive
already horrible
and take note of the letter “g”
when I added those girls on FB
they didn’t even know who am I
and even when we met in persons
KaiYin was like saying
“OMG how you have changed”
“Can you pass me your secret”
haha.. Botox
subconsciously
I want to impress these people from the past
very very much
that why in the dream
I was shunning them
although I very much want to meet them
I don’t wanna look horrible and ugly again
ever again
why Mickey Mouse skirt
when we were young
that’s the branded clothes, isn’t it
okay I have to admit
I was already very brand conscious
since I was a very young kid
Puma Shoes at primary school
rare Garfield sling bag to school
Reebok sweater
so it was not really my fault
for being who I am today
some people turned vain
due to the deprivation during childhood
for my case
haha I was cultured into it
but
what are these
now we have Baby Nike, Hallmark etc..
and yesterday Carly was showing me these
my Puma shoes are nothing
compare to these
waking up to find that
oh
I wore this to bed yesterday
no wonder…
maybe this is the real me
thick glasses
Mickey pants
loose Nike tee
(see it’s still a Nike)
but I saw far worse people
wearing authentic Arsenal jersey
to sleep
tsk tsk tsk