Passing by the tuition center
where I made myself present
at least 6 days a week
sometimes twice a day
Suddenly realize
how come life was like
tough too back then
during school days
8:30 am, Sunday
in a Physics tuition class
almost dozing off
driest formula ever,and
I actually attended two
physics Tuition classes with
differrent tutors to
make sure that I, at least
understand the concepts
Maths & Mandarin tuition classes
almost back to back
On a Monday afternoon
all the way till 9pm
It ended at 9:30pm
Certain nights and I
came home quite hungry
and quite cold too
There I was singing
“It’ a damn cold night,
trying to figure out this life”
in silence
Waking up at 5am to
complete some Maths homework
damn it...
can't get it done/right
Then I continued on at school
before the bell rang
by copying from
some reliable sources
while purposely made mistake to
camouflage the fact that
it was copied
Buying loads and loads of
reference books for
extra reading & practicing
before the exams
Entire holidays were
spent at home revising and
attending extra classes
back at school
on top of the usual tuition classes
Yet it felt quite alright
somehow
because there's some direction to
look forward to
some motivation to
push yourself ahead
Primary school
you look forward to
praises from parents and teachers
whenever good grades were achieved
High school
you look forward to
entering a good college
College
you look forward to
securing a good job upon graduation
But what's for now?
Such insignificant things which
I look forward to which
almost make me cry
Such as
being comfortably in bed right now
was something I looked forward to
while sitting in front of the computer
in the office
and the best part of all is
I got my wish granted
every single night after 11
Erm....
how simple life actually is
good night