the story went on from the previous post
Loweakend X Higheatemp: Suddenlill
Monday
I thought the antibiotics gonna save me
but it stopped working after
Monday night
I kept imagining
the bovine source capsules
swimming and swimming in my tummy
not getting dissolved
and the chinese medicine
getting clogged somewhere
Tuesday
going for the 3rd doctor
back to the childhood’s doctor
the one I always went back to
when everything else didn’t work
family treatment
she is not really a doctor
or practitioner
guess it’s a family inheritance
a housewife lady who
mixes powder herbs
for the sake of helping
no qualification no nothing
so it’s solely based on mutual trust
so it’s the same chinese herb smell again
but have more confidence in
my childhood hope
6 portions of powder like this
3 hours each
1st portion down
oh it worked just like a sharp needle
popping away those not-dissolving craps in my tummy
well at least that’s what I imagined
instant relief
I have not eaten for days
the smell of bread has already got me sick
yet feeling so bloated all the time
surviving without any medicine
for the third days already
yet still clutching on to all the restrictions
no chilies
how I dream of firely fried noodle
how I dream of the thick smooth curry gravy
the only food that cheered me
are these soft fluffy potatoes
for three meals
I have been eating nothing but these
one week
I thought it is going to cost me a weekend
but a week just went by …
just like that
hiding underneath the blanket
waking up to toy with iPad
sleeping back to the music
waking up to the hourly news
dreaming of the tantalizing spicy food
zombie-ing around in socks
the weather outside
is still pretty unstable
windy at times
sudden rain
skin penetrating sunlight
praying to cease feeling dizzy
the rest is not mine to worry
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