there are loads of things
I have completed
like never before
I gave away a favorite tee
as Christmas gift
but unfortunately
to other’s boyfriend
I made a Christmas card
attached with my favourite choc and
dropped it at my lunch partner’s desk
but unfortunately
he didn’t even
ask me if I wanna hang out or
something of that sort
I sent 100+ greetings
but unfortunately
90% are work contacts
and some are not even
bothered to reply
my bro was laughing so loud
to the jokes he was telling
but unfortunately
his joke is about me being F.A.
what’s F.A.?
that’s his initial, isn’t it
but in my case he said is
forever alone
and he didn’t mind if
I want to hang out with him
on Christmas day as
I would be all alone at home
everyone has these lonely moments
so it’s fine for me
damn him!!
I was laughing to his jokes
haha very funny
but unfortunately
there were tears held back
I was off work
slightly earlier after 6
but unfortunately
there’s nothing much to do
so I went for grocery shopping
on a Christmas’s eve
bought tonnes of food
and started munching cookies
on my way home because
I was already almost starving
being half asleep on the bus
got home by 9 something
probably the cookies
had keep me full
so I fucking did one thing
which I always wanted to do
throughout the year
which is to
head straight to bed
without shower and etc
with my working dress and
make up on
I woke up in the middle of the night
after 12
maybe it was time to go wash up
yet all I did was
changing the LBD into a tank top
at least I did, right?
and grabbed the
half pack of cookies
munched them all in bed
and fell back to sleep
anway
life goes on today
after a really good night sleep
woke up early to mop the floor
continue to work on my survey translation
and have more naps in between
last Christmas
I wanted to travel the world
this Christmas, I am all shattered
Merry Christmas, folk!