what the fuck have i done that
i deserve something like this?
a Swedish-made souvenir
Snoopy Let’s Mango perfume
fell from the hand of my niece
just like that
and i was blamed for
how could you let her hold something so fragile
how could you leave something precious to YOU on the table
just like that?
the fruity scent soon permeated the whole space
smelled lovely, still
please remember this scent, Steph
but that’s the last of it, definitely
i picked the bottle up from trash bin
without anyone seeing
or they will accuse me of being a trashy again
it’s okay
it’s still standing strong
15 minutes later
i sat there doing tasks
pretending,
it’s alright
it’s alright
then the culprit started playing with my iPad
at the other corner
and abused 3 Smurfberries for
games at lucky draw stall,
earning petty flowers
okay
maybe that doesn’t sound like anything serious
if you are not a player
that really infuriated me
even more than the first time
i have been playing this game for almost 2 years
and this is not the first occurrence
and i still had to keep cool
and went on pretending that
it’s no big deal, really
because
the culprit’s mother was sitting right in front
she plays the game
she knows how devastated i could get to
lose Berries like that
and her attitude since
the perfume broke was the same throughout:
INDIFFERENCE
it’s my fault
it’s all my fault
i let my bloody perfume runs wild all over the table
i let my Smurf Village appears so attractive to kids
all she said was:
stop messing with her iPad
go play with mine on the phone
so the obedient culprit
just left the iPad alone
and started some other way more interesting games
on the phone
then the mom added:
I WILL ASK YOUR DAD TO GET YOU A TABLET SOON
speechless
no i have to remain mute
i just have to
in the movie 《Caught in The Web 搜索》
the tycoon boss said:
problem which is solvable with money
is not a problem at all
yeah
i think he is probably right
although he is dirt rich yet
i am dirt poor
at least
i feel better comforting myself with this line
i can buy tonnes of Smurfberries
cart of perfumes to flood the house
and i do not have to go on pretending that
i am perfectly happy being
part and parcel of this house
most of the time,
as a condescending household-helper
in order to earn extra pocket money
she is just a kid
she is just a kid
she is just a kid
fuck my life
sorry i could no longer watch my language
it’s better that slashing it out loud in their faces
i tried it once,
not even that kind of language
it was just some shouts
and i paid a terribly price for it
prices, in fact
which i could not possibly forget for
the rest of my life