Prelude
whenever I came across Optical 88
my heart can’t help skipping a beat
especially the one in Mahkota Parade
where he used to work
just can’t help peeping
although I pretty well know that
he is no longer working there
been years
I have never seen him there
wondering where is him
what is he doing
and is it going well
2012.03.18 Sunday
was hanging around at the bench
with my dad at Aeon mall
after a bookstore shopping
then till
Him.. Oh my goodness
it was him walking out of Optical 88
damn
I have been looking for years
so all he did was got transferred to another branch
it has been years really, five?
he looked more matured since then
but I just can’t help staring
sitting and waiting
pretending to read a book
wondering when is he coming back
or he is leaving for real
ten minutes later…
12 noon
erm..
he should be going for lunch?
to washroom?
then another colleague of him walked out again
wait.. the guy was heading
in the direction of washroom
(from the signboard)
which is just eye-distance away
so definitely Mr. M was going elsewhere
okay..
it’s his smoking break, I guess
remember the back alley
was where he was puffing away
and I first had a crush on him
more then five years down the road
no positive progress in
my relationship record
hell a lot of shits which are not worth mentioning
finally Mr. M was back
probably didn’t realize anything
and I was hiding my camera
behind the shopping bag
but was too cowardice to snap
2012.07.29 Sunday
here I am again
after 3+ months
he was there..
nobody else but him
but with bunch of customers
100 watt melting smile
and I was grinning to myself
that feeling is real
seeing someone you really like from distant
is more than enough
and continuing on for years
though he does not even know if I exist
it has been awhile
since someone in reality
makes my heart to skip a beat
Food for Thought
I regret not adding him on Facebook
somehow
I managed to find the profile
can I just tell you..
how much I really like you for that long
if only
I should
I could
then I would
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