Driven into Insanity

it’s has been awhile…

i am still struggling

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growing fatter and fatter

all pants are tight than ever

getting lazier and lazier

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it’s already week 9

i had only spent 2 Sundays in the dorm

one was before essay due

one was before mid-term exams

the rest, i was having fun shopping or at home

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it was terrible

when i was staring blankly into the paper

looking at the clock

didn’t know how to solve

a single question for Micro

12 out of 30 marks, all gone

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it was even more terrible

when i could nap for almost 4 hrs

yet still slept at 10pm at night

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i hate the sight of books

just don’t feel like studying anymore

and have came up with the permanent solution

that i won’t do Honours year

but if i am continuing to fall deeper into the slump

the choice is not on me

i won’t even qualify to do Honours

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i just want to finish my uni asap

and go out to work

fulfil the 3 years tuition grant thingy

repay the loan

save money for my projects

and that’s all

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i tried to motivate myself

but none of the methods worked

told my parents the truth

i have given up hope on myself

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2 1/2 sems to go

just strive on

don’t give up hope

because i am already half-way through

don’t waste your time

and end up with nothing at all

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please wake up…

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