Saturday, December 22, 2018

2018/12/22: November Better

It's 22nd today

the procrastination gap is

getting bigger and bigger

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On my way to the airport now

for a short family retreat

in Penang

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November started slow

but I was super lazy from the

hectic workload during end of October

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Followed by an one week retreat in Fujian

super chill super slow

zero itinerary

i spent two mornings

working all the way

before we headed out at noon

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Something frustrating happened

before the trip

which I realized much later

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I spent the night doing a task

until 1 something AM

and then continued on to finalize it

at the airport

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Weeks later

when i asked about the pending PO

I had somehow missed that damn email

which informed about task cancellation

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somehow dumbfounded

when 100+ just disappeared

anyway i labelled that task

under jinxed category

because it came back and forth

for more than a month

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Serious work kicked in

after the recharge trip

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Juggling between two huge projects

and some other smaller tasks in between

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It was 5am on a Sunday morning

at an Airbnb

after attending a wedding dinner

that my friend sleeping next to me

said she heard someone typing

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But when she woke up

finding i was asleep

she thought it was a dream

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In fact it wasn't

during those wee hours that

i really need to work and rest

at the same time

i can actually work for 1 hour

then head back to a quick nap

alternatively

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until the sunlight hits the window

then i will be in full swing

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that's how i survive

many damn cold nights

settling deadlines which

seem impossible to

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Other than that

the month ended pretty fast

as one of the big project s

went on all the way until

mid of December

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it was one of the most

challenging of them all

audio transcription for long interviews

with live interpretation

in the background

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but I think I kinda

achieved a new milestone

9pm to 5am,

all the way to finish off one file

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then continue working

after a 2 hour nap

working from

9pm to 5am

and then 7am to 5pm

you can’t imagine

how productive I felt

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anway

i will write the December post along

as I somehow feel there will be

more procrastination and hibernation

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plus I do need to write a summary post

to wrap the year

i mean this is all I am left with

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i no longer blog about

shopping, travel, music or

anything under the sun

as I used to do

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the momentum in November

continued until something

even more painful happened

earlier this week

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Having spent almost 4 years

as a full time freelancer

i got fee deduction for the very first time

for error which was partially my fault

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it feels more like a humiliation

rather than the amount deducted

i wish i would have argued

after discussing the situation with

an experienced "mentor"

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but if the person was firm enough to do this

i doubt it will change anything

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but it somehow makes me

realize something serious

the "no safety net" concern is real

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next day if your client decides

to give up on you

for whatsoever reason

that’s it

end of story

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anyway I try not to take it personal

thank goodness

ino longer have to deal with

people in person

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i am that kind who show

whatever emotion i have

right on the face

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Anyway

when you shop hard

during 11.11, BFCM,

as well as 12.12 & Christmas

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You have to work equally hard to

generate enough to

fund your shopping

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and I managed to

make another record

something good this time round

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attended wedding dinner and

registration of wedding ceremony

for the very first time in

a decade or maybe much longer

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who knows

I may change my mind

about getting married

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