Sleep
Then:
used to make sure that
I have at least 7 hours of sleep
or else I get quite grumpy
Now:
now any duration of sleep will do
no matter how late I sleep
I still wake up automatically by
5:30 anyway
if sleep is definitely insufficient
I will sleep in the office then
during lunch hour
after munching my
bread/cookies/chocolate
Social
Then:
I used to be quite anti-social
never mingle alone
except the few persons
I trust and know and would like to
have them as my friends
Now:
I am quite sociable at work
laughing with the gang
chilling out with the boys
gossiping with the “sisters”
yet still quite anti-social on
personal sphere
I go for grocery shopping on
a solo basis, still
but I no longer hide myself in the room
since I am sharing room with two others
I am like the one who
spent most time at the living room
that’s basically like my room
since my everything
from wardrobe, desk to computer
are at the living room
everything of mine
except the bed is in the room
a stark contrast to the girls
who shut themselves in the room
door is always closed
I don’t get it
why can’t they even leave the door ajar
well.. I used to do that too
door is tightly closed 24/7
Breakfast
then:
I used to believe in
a cup of hot chocolate is the way
to kickstart a day
no matter how busy you are
and some wheatmeal bread
would be good and
I insist of having breakfast at home
before heading out
that’s the way of life
now:
hot drink is too time consuming
so I blend cold shake instead
and no bread or whatsoever solid food
just the cold drink will do
I even leave my loaf of bread
at the office
so that I can eat it
whenever I am hungry
Appearance
Then:
no make-up
no heels
and I thought I could
go on being so carefree
and live happily ever after
Now:
finally succumb to the
“peer-pressure”
ain’t no ordinary peer-pressure if
it’s given from
those above your hierarchy
so make-up is a daily routine
so is heels
Family
Then:
was a home girl
and was going home so often
like insisting to go home
every single week
despite of the “peer-pressure”
Now:
I have not even talked to my family
for one month or so
due to some issues
I can’t really explain in
a couples of lines
Without Shelter X Can Do Even Better: Dear Father
but let’s just face it
I am moving on
with(out) them
because I am just too tired
all I wanna do for weekend is
wasting some time at the kitchen
taking long naps to
repay my sleep debt
I didn’t even tell my mom
I am not working today
she asked if I am still busy
I answered: yup
-the end-
Online shopping
Then:
I resisted online shopping
and insisted on physical store purchase
except CDs and books
Now:
I no longer buy physical CD and books
and I shop for anything under the sun
clothes especially
the ban has been long broken
then I rephased it this way
yes I do buy online
only from the official store
not random online seller
no..
that’s not even true
I even bought my watch
from random seller in a
FB community page
I gonna meet
the watch tomorrow hopefully
hey.. in few hours time
Cursing
Then:
I only cursed when
when I was really in dire frustration
which didn’t happen that often
once in a blue moon maybe
and even in writing
I avoid using the F* word
as much as I can
Now:
I use the F* word in conversation
like so naturally
every now and then
I even scolded someone with that
right in her face
but I make a vow
not to use it verbally
since two days ago
hey this gonna
scare my future bf away
that’s what I have been
telling myself
so don’t use it, k
unless you are
really really mad with something
Laughing
Then:
I used to suppress laugh
because I think it’s not lady to
LOL in the public
quite unglamorous
Now:
who cares about being lady
if I can curse,
(nay.. stop the cursing shit)
why can’t I laugh carefree-ly
under the sun
the other day
I was walking with a friend
he was asking
who gave you this
referring to some food
I was holding
I gave out a buffaw
and said:
my secret admirer
maybe mentioning of him
is really making me really happy
and the guy was like
I bet he is jealous
yes he is
he was like:
hey why are you
laughing like this
you gonna scare the boys away
#DIC
do I care?
Conclusion
so is that a
good or bad direction
I am driving myself into
not that I have a choice
I am doing my best to stay afloat
but no kidding
I am feeling quite great now
it seems that I am achieving
something new everyday and
exploring new aspect of
myself and things around
with the frequency that
I am updating my blog
you can see how
ideas come flowing in
and I have to somehow
capture them before
they give the slip
there’s no turning back
that’s for sure
p.s.
no worries
I won’t resort to
smoking or drinking
to deal with the gush of pressure
first and foremost
I can’t even afford these hobbies
secondly
my vegetarianism has been
so there’s no way
I wanna ruin my health by
doing something in
the opposite direction
but I do pretend I smoke
no, this was not inspired by
the protagonist of
《The Fault in Our Stars》
to take time off my
highly pressurized environment
hanging out with smoker at
the corridor or sometimes
just me alone
looking at the world going by
blogging at the balcony
at wee hour
good one
keep it up, Steph
