officially cancelling my HK trip this Saturday
due to the bad planning
everything started not right since
the very beginning, last year
booking with the wrong person
booking wrong hotel date
On The First Day of Christmas.. Santa Claus Gave to Me
not telling our parents
and got everything booked
although ultimately my dad gave me the green light
he even offered a 1k MYR allowance
and calling up the credit card centre
so that in case i make any transaction abroad
it won’t be rejected
initially
plan to find a substitute
but how to
- RM 500 is too much a sum to pay
- parents would not allow
- too short notice
- nobody is as free as i am
forget about it
it’s quite useless
and it is no use to force people to go
the harder i push
the harder the situation looks like
fuck
just blame yourself
everything is wrong in the very first place
going solo?
i have even listed down the itinerary
if i were to go alone
but it would not work
nobody will even know
if i were to die there
and it costs me another lie
to tell my parents
they are giving me everything at its very best
it is so unfair for them
if really i die onboard
since everything about the trip
is going wrong, somehow somewhere
maybe it is just a sign
come on
just give up
i do not want to
have bigger regret later
so what of losing the money
at least i can get partly-refund
for the hotel
more importantly
i want the winter trip in planning
to go right
100% going right
i vow
if i ever get married next time
will get that unfortunate dude
to accompany me, for at least once
for a concert at HKC
for an autograph session at bookfair
for a day-trip at Macau
or even better
if i marry a Hong Kong dude
and can go there as frequent as i like
*sssshhhh..
yup, that’s my secret ambition*
goodness
only god knows why
am i so madly in love with the whole HK culture
collect skin la 收皮啦
and go sleep!!!
and forget about the whole thing
tomorrow morning