it has been some times
oh yeah
really fast indeed
I have been out of my permanent job
for a month to be exact
unemployed
nay that’s not the right word
I am a freelancer
*please be more firmed
and louder please*
but still I wake up everyday
struggling to figure out if
this is a period of
temporary transition or
a permanent reposition
there are days of
good and bad of course
days that you hardly get jobs
it is some quite
stressful moment of counting fingers
and rejected proposal of cooperation
at least they are kind enough to reject
some do not even reply in the first place
some thank you for the email
and that’s all
contrasting days that
I work 2 hours to cash in
equivalent amount of a day
stuck in a prison-like office
for at least 8 hours
adding insult to injury
my laptop Mr. Smith was spoilt
over and over again
that’s the worst
and it couldn’t get any worse when
even the good old (in fact quite slow)
desktop at home is down
the nightmare is over as
I have got myself a new laptop
it’s about time I guess
4 year long of service
yet when this happened
at the worst timing ever
it seems like the end of the world
almost…
for a start
it wasn’t as bad
as I made 2/3 of
what I could have earned from
my long hours job
yet there are loads
at the back of my mind
the trade-offs
no career advancement
no social security or whatever it is
no social life, almost zero
the good time such as
having breakfast and
doing grocery shopping during
odd hours like a retiree
taking shower in the evening
without turning the light on
as the sun is still shining in through
Sunday evening which is all mine
without invasion of Monday blue
oh please..
I can’t wait for Monday
as I am all recharged for new task
all tucked away
at the safest corner
yours truly
that’s me