The fact that September has recorded
the lowest sales figure ever
since 2016 came no surprise
that is after borrowing
a pending 300+ invoice
completed on 31 Aug
since we were expecting
some amendment to come
and it is kinda pressurizing
as i was leaving for a trip on 23rd
assuming that that would be
the closing date for the month
it felt kinda stressed up
as the date got closer and
the sales figure never seemed to hit
but eventually it did
right before i left
feeling slightly at ease
during the trip
didn’t really work hard
until the very last night
which is a good thing as
i was exhausted from the
day and night shopping
and our internet was kinda poor
i was standing on the street
12 / 2 AM utilizing public free Wi-Fi
to download / upload my 600 kb file
another reason
why it was kinda pressurizing is
spending was shockingly a lot
over the month as
my parents were celebrating their birthdays
and i got my dad a huge present
which is equivalent to
my one month income
and a proper handbag for my mom
then i got myself a new pair of specs
which is like the most expensive ever
as an investment
and other minor spending such as
getting an air purifier for the family
a birthday gift for my 10 year old niece
a farewell gift for my 20 year old nephew
leaving for studies at Warsaw
then of course i need
another sum of money
in preparation for the trip
as i browsed through my spending
(excluding travel, shopping)
it is shockingly building up
exceeding the figure i made in a year
as a junior executive back then
and the fact that another
failed relationship is brewing
kinda alert me to
earn more and save up for
a stand-alone retirement plan
all by myself
still
i shall always remind myself
of how lucky i am
being able to
make a living from
what i enjoy doing at
where i enjoy working