had a beautifully strange
strangely beautiful
dream on the first day of 2015
like kinda weird
the sequence doesn’t make sense
an old man died
I don’t think he is my grandpa
but maybe he is
I can’t exactly remember
but somehow yeah
there is this old man
passed away after
he fell down after
following younger folks
for hiking activity
and I was
crying and crying
as I was reading the
coroner’s notes
(what the hell, too much of
Agatha Christie I guess)
regretting that I should have
spent more times with him
and he wouldn’t have fallen and dead if
I have some other better plans
he didn’t have to go hiking
while reading the note crying
suddenly the whole setting is changed
reading a novel at a bookstore
or still with the coroner’s note
I am not sure
and I was with a guy
not sure if his identity is
a boyfriend / a date / etc
he gave me a warm squeeze
as I was still crying
(stop laughing!!)
but guess what
he is definitely someone
I knows in reality
well of course I am not
going to tell you who he is
not now!!
unless maybe if you know
looks like the bookstore was
closing down pretty soon
light was dimmed
so I grabbed the book
and headed to the counter
my guy was waiting for me
outside the bookstore
a Caucasian & Spanish couple
with their mixed kid were in front of me
they were paying for their magazine
Economists or Business week
some “intellectual” publication
and they were trying to get discount since
they claimed that they are subscriber
but somehow the cashier guy
did not manage to get the discount keyed in
another sale girl was standing
speaking with the couple in Spanish
and she went into the counter
trying to help out
then both the couple and this sale girl
turned out to be accomplices who
would like to rob the bookstore
so I was squatting down
I am not sure if
it was an instruction from the robbers
or out of spontaneous reaction
then my guy actually came back
into the bookstore
and hugged me
protecting me from getting injured
he did something like
wanting the robbers to
leave me alone
and we ended up well
after the robbery
what the hell
OMG
don’t laugh
kinda touching isn’t it
he could have flee the scene
I don’t know
I always expect myself to be
dumped / left behind by guy
so this really touched me
it’s a sign!!
what sign?
I am not sure about that guy
but it’s indeed a sign that
I am way too DESPERATE
right now
and I think it’s about time to
go home and spend time
with my family