People come and go
As I was always told
What’s if it’s your best Bro?
Will You still be fine, though?
it was as usual
a turbulent Friday
on top of the usual anxieties
suddenly informed of
a major happening next week
which entails quite a lot of work
suddenly feeling quite lost
as to the direction of
the project I am handling now
suddenly hooked onto
some dumb conversation which
I swear.. even I feel like
slapping myself for being so
hmmm…
suddenly..
everything is all so suddenly
suddenly being denied
the access to enter my condo
due to failure to produce
the security access card
suddenly being thrown with
tasks what I feel I do not have
the responsibility to fulfill
yet I did promise to do so
even though I have left office
out of courtesy
and yet the requestor asked if
I am fine with handling
Power Point?
finally managed to catch Mag
past midnight
begged her to have a chat
since we had not do so for long
but the conversation didn’t feel right
because I found that
she didn’t share the sentiment
which I was feeling
and I felt kinda like
*bang* when she asked me to
stop finding trouble like a person
who is too free and has got
nothing better to do
well basically that can be
summarized in the
4-word-idiom she used,
庸人自擾
and she asked me
not to feel agitated and
she does not want me to
continue in the sorrow
kind of emo
I am neither in sorrow nor emo
and never agitated
all I want to do is to
discuss some issues that
bothered me recently
so I actually did tell her
right away that
let’s just leave the topic
as it is because
I do feel that our line are
not aligned today
something is just not right
I do not blame her
because she is probably tired herself
and has got her own issues which
I am not aware of
so probably I should stop
the habit of sharing my problems around
which are quite insignificant
in the eyes of others
never stop keep writing as
that’s the only tool to
voice your problems
without the need to
spreading the negative energy and
get yourself agitated as
the message didn’t get across
life is already harsh
not really mind making it harsher by
accepting the fact that
people tear apart
no exception for us