you gonna help me out
it’s all a blur last night
yesterday was a disaster
worse than waking up in Vegas
i slacked at home for the whole day
to be specific, on my bed
from morning till night
i wasn’t blogging
i wasn’t chatting with anyone
just hanging around
munching loads and loads of corn flakes
and it was raining whole day
rain is that one thing
that easily gets on my nerves
it makes my mind goes dysfunctional
it’s already September
wake up from your bullshit summer
plans after plans
none has worked out
just continue to hea
skipped work
pretending that i am sick
i feel so ashamed to return
it’s supposed to be a-month-long part-time job
told my boss i am going for a course
so i will no longer enter work for 5 days
but another crashed plan
so i really feel ashamed to go back
she was very kind
even offering accommodation
just i case i am taking any course at Kay Elle
and half of the time suggesting different paths
i can try out
but that really depressed me
you know,
she even suggested insurance agent
that would be the last job i will take up
even if i am starving
me myself don’t even believe in insurance
it’s full of phonies schemes
c’mon
you can’t trust your life with those phonies
but they are trusting you for their
dream-house, dream-car, dream vacation
i right away told her
“nope i am not interested
i don’t like job that requires much talking”
i hate to go back to the office
telling her how my plan was crashed
and listen to more suggestions
till night
my parents are back home
i was already on bed at 8.30 pm
what to do
i really don’t have anything to do
if i am messing around with the laptop
we will end up getting into a fight
accusing me of fooling around
on the internet for the whole day
my dad tried to talk to me
but i was really that bastard that
i told him
“we have got nothing to talk at all
just leave me alone
because i want to sleep”
i just that killed him
because other than me
there is no one else he can talk to
he even offered to buy me a camera
that wouldn’t do any help
that is not the reason for me
to fall into such depression
even i got a new camera
toy with it for awhile
i will fall into another depression
i want to buy one with my own dough
that i really take pride in
let it be BF1, Pencil, Previous5
what i really want to ask them for are answers
1st… proceed to the 2nd if you hesitate for more than 30 secs
“why wouldn’t you tell me what i gonna do now??”
2nd… proceed to the 3rd if your answer is a NO
“why wouldn’t you just let me do what i want?”
3rd…just do as the question suggested if you can’t answer it
“why wouldn’t you leave me alone?”
thank you for your time
don’t mourn for me if i am dead tomorrow
don’t organize any funeral and invite more phonies
just burn the corpse and
don’t throw the ashes into the sea
it is kinda polluting
just bury it on some open space
just like how people bury their dogs
and plant a tree on top
so that at least if i am useless during living
i maybe slightly useful after death
nourishing a baby tree
when the tree grows
just crave my name on top
that will do
and thanks a million
有沒有 / 韋禮安
Turn off the radio
Turn off the lights you know
聽見了誰的痛 在空氣中
不斷跳動 又那麼沈重
Turn on your favorite song
Turn off what I did wrong
聽見了誰的傷 在窗戶旁
安靜的想 是什麼力量
| 有沒有 / 韋禮安 詞曲：韋禮安 Turn off the radio Turn on your favorite song 你 有沒有愛過我 Turn on the radio Turn off your favorite song 你 有沒有愛過我 |